Scream, girl, scream! Give your emotions a voice. Let it all out and release that trauma. Stop smiling through your pain. Instead release it. Stop burying your emotions. Dig up that pain and throw it on the ground. Scream at it, stomp on it, and work through it. Say it, scream it, make it real. Own those emotions, deal with them, and move on. You deserve that much.
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